Marmalade

Marmalade ♥︎ info

Last login: 12/16/24
Mood: playful teehee
Oshi Mark: 🧶🎀
Fanbase Name: puppy pals
Art Tag: #marmieandme

Welcome

Thank you for visiting my website! Here you can find general information about me, updates in my life, my latest crochet projects, my asset credits, and all of my socials! Join the puppy pals and come hang out with me!

Updates

16/dec New blog
13/dec Site went live + first blog

Schedule

mon	hiatus
tue	hiatus
wed	hiatus
thu	hiatus
fri	hiatus
sat	hiatus
sun	hiatus

Name: - Marmalade
Species: - Puppy Person
Gender: - Nonbinary
Birthday: - 2/21
Sign: - Pisces
MBTI: - INFP

About

I am a silly nonbinary puppy who runs an art store! My pronouns are they/them! I love all sorts of games, from shooters to jrpgs to farming games to visual novels. I am a very bubbly person who loves to yap. I am all about authenticity and trying to feel comfortable in my own skin, while also being a pastel puppy on the internet :p I love the fantasy that vtubing allows me to live!

Likes
Dislikes

♥ arts and crafts	♥ loud noises
♥ electric blankets	♥ coffee
♥ mysteries	♥ driving
♥ reality tv	♥ crowded places

Ref Sheet

Blog

Starting Something New

I just want to start with that Arunyi and I have been crafting this website for months, and it's literally perfect. I love Arunyi so very much and I couldn't have asked for anything more.I've been on hiatus from streaming for most of the latter half of the year, and honestly I've just been in such a rough place emotionally. But I finally feel like I've come a very long way! After being broken up with in July, I made a lot of very important life style changes. I am caffeine free, mostly alcohol free (only on special occasions!), got a new much better job, figured out my medication for my mental health, and I've lost 40 pounds this year. I've felt guilty for sacrificing my vtuber journey while I've worked out my life, but using this time to rediscover myself and be reborn as a more independent person has been the best thing I've ever done in my adult life. Perhaps even my entire life! And I am so proud of myself.I am going on vacation to visit my parents for the bulk of the end of December, so I'm not sure if I should try and make my comeback before then when I'll just be gone for so many days in a row again? We'll see. Thank you so much to my biggest puppy pal supporters in my discord! Ruf, Rayan, Noel. Sen, Soleil, Necro and Chad have been there for me in ways I never could have dreamed of. I know my community is small, but that doesn't matter to me: they are the best people I could have asked for. I will never take my precious friends for granted on this crazy ride my life has been.In the coming weeks I hope to make some exciting announcements about all the fun assets I've had made while on my hiatus! Even though I've been resting, my wallet certainly hasn't! And I can't wait to showcase all of the insanely talented people's work that I have hidden behind the scenes!Thank you so much to anyone who takes the time to read this blog. I have been in this very introspective place within my mind this year and I am so incredibly thankful for everything I've been blessed with. If you are in a bad place right now, please know that even though it sounds cliché, things truly will get better. Don't give up hope. If I can navigate myself through this dark time in my life and rise from the ashes into a better version of myself, so can you. I look forward to opening my heart up again and sharing my love and energy with all my lovely friends and supporters! See y'all soon! TTFN!
-MarmaPosted on 12/13/24

Dave and Busters? I hardly know'er!

It's a long evening here at work, which I'm thankful for considering how often I don't get my hours. I figured while things were slow I'd take the time to write down some general life stuff. I am attempting to be dedicated to this blog section after all.The weekend was both eventful and not in a way? I accidentally cut a whole into my latest crochet project and had to scrap all the progress I had made. It really broke my heart to throw it out. I'm trying to find the time to make that progress back up, when when I'm leaving to see my parents this Saturday it's going to be hard to pack yarn. We'll see if I figure something out.I went on a date this Sunday! It was my second date with the guy, his name is Ollie. I feel like I should describe him. He is a latino violinist who is 27 years old. He's like 180 lbs and incredibly well dressed. He grew up "on the wrong side of town" so to speak, and he dresses so professionally all the time so nobody looks at him as if he doesn't belong in the nicer places he now frequents. Whenever he talks about that kind of thing, it makes me reflect on my own privilege. I have such a specific sense of style and aesthetic, and it makes me think about how unfair it is that I don't have to think as hard about the impressions I make.We went to Dave and Busters, and he had never been there before. I have definitely been in the past, but not in a way where I could place how old I was at the time. I assumed that the technology would be a good bit more current than in my memories, and that was very correct lol. There were 4 or so games that had VR headsets attached, and they were sooo fun. My favorite game was set in the Godzilla universe, and after you strap on your headset you fall out of a helicopter and it was super cool. We played a lot of competitive games, and I don't think it mattered much to me how well I performed? But I did a good job. It's kinda crazy how fun regular air hockey is among all these crazy new games. Sometimes you can't beat the classics. I was hitting the puck super hard and there was a point where Ollie realized that if I missed, when it shot back at me I had very little time to react? So it kind of became a battle against myself towards the end, which was hilarious. I did win both sets we played for whatever it's worth lol.After we left, he took me out to dinner and ice cream! We snacked on a cheese board and had grapefruit sodas and it was so pleasant. It really hit me in the middle of the meal that I don't have enough life experiences? Which is probably too heavy of a thing to drop during this paragraph. I just don't have enough exciting stories about my life post pandemic to tell that aren't Chuppa adjacent and I hate having to bite my tongue to prevent myself from mentioning him. I'm so self aware of how much I struggle talking about myself in a way that is like, not purely surface level but also not trauma dumping? I'm too much of an open book and I've gotta fix that. At the end of everything I apologized for being awkward. and when I did that Ollie responded saying that he felt badly about his own dead air, which honestly I hadn't even perceived. And then he said that I was so beautiful that he struggled to believe he was sitting across from me in his head, which kinda took my breath away to hear. I tried my best to be cute so it was kinda like. At least I succeeded in that even if my wordsmithing is not up to snuff.It was a really nice evening even though I'm still overwhelmed with my own shortcomings. I'm just so afraid in my own mind to fuck stuff up? My anxiety doesn't even have to deal with Ollie specifically, it's just me feeling like I'm not capable of being a normal person? If that makes any sense at all? I'm in the best mental health I've ever been in, and I think I'm a fucking cool person who anyone would be lucky to have in their corner, but having this newfound confidence is a little scary. I don't want to be delusional in how I wield my newfound strength. I am so easily convinced that I'm some kind of monster and I've gotta break down that wall. Even if Ollie ghosted me tomorrow, I would still be proud of myself for going on a date at all and attempting to break down the Fort Knox I've constructed around my heart and soul. I'm doing my best.I am in the process of coming up with a list of traits I'd want my significant other to have? But when I put them on paper it is all very sad. I feel like I want such basic things. I deserve to have a higher bar than I do within my mind right now. Hopefully I get there. I've gotta wrap this up before I send myself spiraling on accident. Let's manifest good news soon.
-MarmaPosted on 12/16/24

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Peaches the Bunny

Pattern by name

My favorite thing I've made so far!
Finished 6/25/24

Lemon Axolotl

Pattern by name

You can see how early into my crochet career I made this with all the warped stitches. I'd love to remake this one day to show my growth!
Finished 1/27/24